Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Hebrews 11:1
withers away @ 11:13 pm
went out with cyn on mon to work on our gem proj.. i just hope we're on the right track.. green tea latte frm starbucks taste really good but its really ex.. hahaha..
ytd went out with cyn and bibi to use up our movie passes.. they've been lying there for abt half a yr or more and are expiring in a few days.. doink.. watched no reservations.. not too bad a show but it wasn't fantastic or anything.. we took neoprints! hahaha.. my first time taking neoprints with my new specs hoho.
today went out with pin and joan to kbox.. it was.. a little messy at first.. but evthg worked out i guess.. hoho we really got kee siao.. started off fine and normal really.. ended up screaming songs like wad i've done and complicated.. seriously screaming.. but it was fun:) i conclude, we love linkin park coz of the way we're able to scream the songs properly..
couldnt find this song though i wanted to sing it.. hoho.. and after this, it'll be a hell lot of mugging to do.. self: jiayou!!
i was young but i wasn't naive
i watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still i have the pain i have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried
after all this time
i never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but i couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that i loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when i let you go
i would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like it was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
after all this why
would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it
that my love for you was blind
but i couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that i loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when i let you go
that i loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when i let you go
blind by lifehouse
withers away @ 2:13 am
就是很倔强，就是这么倔强。
withers away @ 11:13 pm
ytd was dnd.. everything went pretty much ok except for some glitches here and there.. it was fun taking photos with ppl coz of the stuff that they were wearing haha.. but as it got later, my eyes turned red again.. seriously i got all sian diao and i think i showed my general disinterest in ppl/things/happenings ard me.. even up till when i went back to hall, ppl were expressing their concerns for me but i guess i just threw a temper at them coz i was really feeling upset and fed up at myself.. v sorry, esp to samson and joey.. its just a v sickening feeling to have, when u alr have things that u need to do, and plans that u alr have in place.. i dun want to find out that its conjunc and have to isolate myself this hols.. haiz..
this morning it was still as red as ever, so i decided i shld go to see the doctor.. yih doc not open *pretty expected*, so decided to go see the doc i usu go to at bt batok.. den went to clementi to my optician.. its not conjunc, but probably some kinda infection.. got eye drops and some med.. at least i dun have to keep away frm ppl, so my plans aren't spoilt.. the redness is alr clearing up, and its v fast considering how red it was last night.. so i argued with my mum abt going to see the specialist.. at least she relented.. haha. but eh i'll have to go without contacts for half a yr, that's wad my optician said.. oh wells im fine with it lah since i wun need to play sports of any kind anyway hehe
anyway, start of recess wk.. not much of a rest if u ask me but at least i guess i get to slp at earthly hours and wake up at earthly hours. and at least my pms doesnt get aggravated, i hope. out of sight, out of mind, it works for some material things, like.. my printer. so that's good hahaha
讨厌深夜，因为那个时候最为脆弱；喜欢深夜，因为感情最为释放。
withers away @ 12:13 pm
feeling better le ba i guess.. bleah got problem den solve loh. if cannot solve den.. lidat le loh.. hahaha..
anyway thurs was buaya wk closing.. it was so sian diao coz my buayee alr knew who i was.. sian diao.. and it turned out my buaya is edwin, the guy who always calls me phantom, also the same guy featured in hey gorgeous who kena "caught" by kym ng.. so coincidental lah.. haha.. though i actually guessed that it might be him..
wad i had for my buayee.. its hearts at the bottom lah cant really see.. i think the whale v cute!
for edwin.. dun be fooled k.. only the top layer are stars.. the rest is... potpourri.. haha u think i so much time make a whole cup of stars ah.. haha
oh yah this was the last thing i got frm edwin.. v nice cake.. with grapes.. just right coz i didnt have fruits that night..
got biscuits frm my buayee.. nthg v big.. but the effort he made in his note was nice.. he's a vietnamese u see, and its really pretty nan de that he bothered.. i even had to google wad LUSM means.. *stupid me* just like i had to google wad YNWA means last yr.. im no liverpool fan u noe..
this is frm edwin.. big jar of choc chip cookies.. and i mean.. big jar.. so now i got loads of biscuits.. wun starve to death at night le:D hahahah
withers away @ 4:39 pm
and indeed it was.
withers away @ 2:49 am
note: this is just a one-off rant and i'll be fine v soon. i just need somewhere to say something because there's no one to say it to.
u noe it sux when everything just doesnt seem to go ur way. u are already trying so hard to keep out those negative thoughts, and it just doesnt help that its the pms period.
everything just crashes down on u, even when all of them are small and insignificant, coz they all start attacking u when u are the weakest, and u are just rendered helpless.
so u can only sit down and pray that tml will be a better day.
but it sux a whole lot worse when u alr noe tml is going to be a bad day, if wad u predict comes true.
withers away @ 10:55 pm
there are some things which are too troublesome and irritating and pissfying to think abt and u just wanna escape but u can't.
no good when coupled with pms. no good.
that's when i start blasting rock thru my overworked speakers. hoho. be thankful its not earphones. hoho.
and i still havent bathed. hoho. no good. no good.
i need a break.
tml will be a better day:):)
withers away @ 7:25 pm
buaya wk makes ppl busy..
buaya wk makes ppl broke..
but buaya wk makes ppl happy:)
im easy to please isn't it?ohyah, on a completely diff note, i think i felt the tremors frm the indonesian earthquake.. didnt know wad i felt was the tremors till the next day when i thought abt it.. i thought my chair was shaky and unstable somehow.. stupid me haha
withers away @ 8:51 pm
beginning to be more thankful for more things.. loving my life as it is.. its true that when u grow older u understand more.. haha.. some stuff dun matter, so dun fret over them, even if the world says u shld.. some stuff do matter, so i rather bother abt these, even if they dun seem worth sacrificing for..
praying for the ppl who need it...
withers away @ 1:08 pm
ok i dun have conjunc ok relax.. its just a bad combi of contacts and lack of sleep haha..
anyway on thurs we had stj.. it was really good food, in my opinion better than last yr's one.. haha i hope our jts will be good too! when it got to band performance, the last song they performed was umbrella.. hahaha.. it was damn funny coz everyone just joined in the "under my umbrella, ella ella eh eh eh under my umbrella...." part.. coz everyone knows how to sing it alr! hahahha..
ytd went out with joan to watch ratatouille! oh man its soooo cute! all the expressions and stuff really damn cute.. must watch.. hehe.. so nice to take a break after so long.. ok like wad seemed so long at least.. this coming wk is going to be hell again.. oh man.. brace urself gal.. hahahah
withers away @ 10:23 am
i didnt really think much abt my eyes till the WHOLE world started telling me how red they were.. den yeanching pestered me to go see the doc, coz she was scared it'll be conjunctivities.. and all of us are scared of conjunc alr, ever since last yr's episode..
now after a full night's slp, which i think is alr enough, my eyes are still red. i've got no idea if its better than last night or not.. shall decide later if i would go down to yih to see the doc.. bleah..
withers away @ 3:32 pm
hoho went to pin's place on fri with joan coz he's flying off on sunday.. sum joined us later.. had a really nice relaxing time drinking and just talking cock.. was laughing over.. evthg.. hahaha.. it got pretty late and we could only take NR back.. by the time i was back in hall it was nearly 2? smth lidat lah it was v late..
on sat the zoo went out! hohohoho to celebrate bibi's bdae... ajitei was so delicious omg.. and seriously its not that ex.. we started going crazy towards the end, and we were laughing like we were back in ny.. im sure the entire restaurant must be thinking we're mad or smth.. drank a little after that before we all went home..
love the company of friends coz its so nice warm and cozy.. the feeling of being totally comfortable.. just the simple presence of best friends is enough to make me happy:D
ni shuo ni kan bu jian wei lai zai na li
qi shi wei lai yi zhi zai ni shou li
ting zi xi
xin zhong de xuan lv
na shi zui cheng ken de sheng yin
yao wei zi ji hu xi
zhi shao hai you wo
dong de guan xin
xia yi pian tian kong by zeng guo hui